The trainer. “Just keep him up there, don’t push him, just let him find his pace.” Michael nodded at the trainer, certain that this horse could do more, would do more. But he didn’t argue and the trainer watched the boy’s expression, implacable and inscrutable. Focused. Tightly wound. Joe Black legged him up into the saddle, nodded to the owners. Holding on tight as the horse pulled forwards, a surging power barely contained. The trainer lead him and his jockey once around the paddock, his sixty year old arms iron stiff and hard, feeling the animal’s breath wet and warm and floating in the early spring air. The owners were watching, their faces flat and unemotional, their anxiety lying deep inside as they murmured to each other. “Is he really ready? Can that boy really hold him, keep him on his feet for all those miles and fences?” They barely heard one another as they leant in closer. They watched as their trainer led Our Jimmy out of the paddock and dropped his hold. They watched as Michael rose up in his stirrups and jumped off and out onto the course, the noise of the crowds fading as the rumble of hooves on turf rose up.
Joe Black can see that both horse and jockey could be going places, bar unplanned mishaps. The horse is truly something special, but so too is that youngster. All wire and sinew and spots and attitude, he struggles to keep in check. A little tall perhaps, but discipline like you rarely see. And awareness. As for that seven year old, he’s got scope and intent to spare, that open easy stride, that powerful backside you could see fighting for more as Michael worked to hold him, keeping the steady canter in an unchanging line down to the first. Waiting there letting his horse get the measure of what was coming. Sitting there motionless, hands low, head slightly bowed, silks bright, his voice a low murmur that only Our Jimmy hears as his ears swivel back and forth. The youngest horse in the race. The youngest jockey in the race. A Grand National virgin. Joe watched as they hack cantered back up the course to the start. Shined streaks of aluminium cut sharp and precise into the turf. Good to firm. Perfect. They turn black dirt to the sky, slivers and divots arcing high, shining bright in the sun. Angels or demons, portends rising up and falling in the chilly April air. Speed and power he thought, speed and power, and a youngster who will be more than the average jockey.
The jockey. I nod at the trainer as he’s telling me how to ride this race. I try not to murmur under my breath that he doesn’t need to tell me. It’s ok, I know what I should be doing, just as I know that this big beast of a seven year old can do much more than he’s shown. I’m glad I can make the weight with room to spare. Maybe it would be better if I were a bit heavier, then the weight would be working instead of dead and useless in the weight pad. The sounds of the paddock a humming noise I cannot hear, I hear only the sound of horses as their riders steer them out of the paddock and onto the course. We’re on our way now, and I must hold onto everything the old man said. Keep him steady on that first canter. Hold him at that pace, take it slow so he can see what’s going on around him. Take it all in. Jesus this horse has some power. Lean back a tad, keep his mind on the job, calm, don’t just hang onto him. Don’t fight. It’s the two of us together. He’s hearing me as I murmur steady, steady and now he’s taking a gentler pull, finding his rhythm, hearing me. Every stride is surging forwards against my body, my hands, my weight. Barely contained, that half a tonne of muscle, bone and attitude pounding forwards. He’s still young but this horse knows the game. “Steady lad, steady… we’ll get there soon enough” and he hears me even though it’s barely a whisper. Those sleek birch grey ears swivel back momentarily, that steady snort of steamy breath matches an even stride. I just know how his eyes are shining, the bugger. Can’t help but smile and love that perfect rhythm.
In slow motion and quiet, the two of them stop in shared silence between the greens below and the blues above. Together they stare at the four and a half foot obstacle, suspension, stillness, a time and motion hiatus. They turn back striding lean and sleek and fluid, towards the start. They are ready.
The horse. Sunshine warm on my back; the scent of crushed grass rising. I am warm, blood and heart surging faster. My ears find the murmur, the sound I need. My skin taut and strong over my frame, my muscles pressing hard. I know why I am here. I know what they want. I know the fear and the thrill and I set my head against the pull. We are slowing and the stink of dirt and sweat are in my nostrils and we’re stopped at a fence I know I can clear. It beckons and calls again as we turn and hack canter back up the track. It beckons and calls as we turn to face it once again. I am ready.
The race. A messy start with too many aborted attempts, the starter raising and lowering his gun as horses go into reverse and keyed up jockeys jostle for position. The horses who know what’s coming are getting wound up. And the ones who don’t pick up the anxiety and the stress. Everyone’s on edge except some are just behind it, taking up space, saving energy, focused and in their own zone. The starter raises his gun one more time. They’re at the tape and Michael’s got Our Jimmy perfectly placed. He’s well back, taking the gamble that keeping the horse out of harm’s way is a better way to ride the race than getting stuck in. It’s what Joe told him; he knows, the horse knows. There’s an intangible unspoken game plan. Michael sees the gleaming rumps and swishing tails, quarter marks neatly brushed into their coats to enhance the muscles. And then the tape is down, quivers and lifts and they’re off, jockeys crouched and low for maximum balance and heading for the first fence. At the back Michael passes a horse planted on the turf and refusing to move, his frantic jockey trying to urge the gelding forwards, conscious of the stewards watching. Our Jimmy pays no heed and Michael can feel the half tonne of muscle, bone and sinew pulling hard against his straining shoulders. He leans back a little, points his toes and sits down into the saddle as Our Jimmy rises up, following a perfect curve and already looking for his landing point. As the emerald shades start leveling out, Michael shifts his weight slightly to ease the horse into a half speed gallop towards the next fence. Our Jimmy is travelling well, they’ve hit a rhythm and Michael is calm. He inhabits a space in the excitement a space where there is something serene and still, something empty he can fill with the murmur of their shared hearts.